Matter Of Heart

19 days have gone, like lightning flashed in horizon of sky, all sorts of blizzard keep on rumbling to my mind. What I had done in this past few days? I have kept on reminding myself; live like a Man, the perfect Man from God, Jesus Christ.

Sigh….!!!

Gosh…!!!

Chill….!!!

These are the words I have rehearsed in front of myself. No doubt, we, human, did wrong. I couldn’t count with my fingers what I had done wrongly, it is uncountable. However, the problem on us, is not simply sorry and nothing. Someone is amended, “people did wrong, because we have to grow from failure”, I understand in the bottom of my heart. Everybody afraid their shortcoming is revealed, I’m not exception, and it is a fact. No matter how serious is the mistake, we should learn from it. If you have successfully overcome, the mistakes will just a déjà vu for us. Somehow, the déjà vu always entertained us, how stupid and silly we had to be when young.

I used to be an overly confidence guy. I have no afraid of being myself, strong. …………………………………………………………long long story I’m reminiscing. It seems nothing wrong. But, someone is really looking after us; he knows everything about us, including our heart and mind. Who should it be? Different people give different answer. For Christian, we should know who HE is. What we’re thinking, doing, planning, dreaming, everything are in His hand. He handles this universe.

I have done wrong, it is not late to change, but, what is our thought. It won’t be late if we step onto the journey.

The matter is, do we willing to go onto the journey?

Do we willing to change our attitude?

Do we willing to accept new things?

Don’t trust your heart. Heart is a murderer of our best. Refer to bible, the words is the answer, eternal in our universe, the only and the only best things we could have.

Live-ING

It is time to change.

It is another year we have to experience.

It is tough and harsh as well as it is expenditure.

A new year, a new hope and a new start, what should I do in this year?

It is not late to improve my English.

A long journey starts with a single step; I need to open my mouth to speak.

Nothing else could be archived if we did not start to do.

Nothing we could get if we are lazy.

Nothing could stop us if we strive to do and never give up.

Nothing is impossible.

Every miracle is created by our hands, not day dream.

Reminiscing yesterday, have I done something better compared to yesterday?

This is the question I always ask instead of have I eaten.

Happy 2011.

Triumph 2011-01-01

Never give up- start counting to 2012.

From 2011-01-01, Saturday, 9:10p.m, in front of computer. XD

Finally

HURRAY…..

WHAT THE HECK…

TIME TO CELEBRATE INDEPENTENT DAY….

WHAT ARE WAITING FOR….

REVEL TIME….

5…

4…

3…

2…

1…

I HAVE FULLY LEFT MY SCHOOL LIFE…

WHAT WILL BE THE NEXT…

COLLEGE…UNIVERSITY…OVERSEA…

OR ELSE…RETURN TO SCHOOL UNIFORM DAYS….

All sorts of questions keep rumbling in my brain, making it hard for me to retrieve. What should I do next? I have the time, without plans, it is useless, indeed. I am begging the national service to inform me about the place I’m going to. Absurd, our government is always running against snail, moreover, they always catching snail’s tail. I’m not pointing any finger to whom I meant, I just try dull out my inner scream.

It is the first time I feel I’m reading alien language in my mandarin exam. It is totally out of my range. Even worse, I couldn’t read a word in a simple sentence. In certain extent, I seldom revise my homework, it pays. Nothing I can change right now, it have been a past tense. It is time to relax…

Recently, Michael Jackson latest album has released. It is his dream, giving us his music and soul. I indeed love it. You are not alone, Michael, rest in peace.

Which will be better for future, engineering or business? Who can tell me by showing some examples. Maybe no one, it could be a tough questions to ourselves.

Starting this moment, I need to continue my life, shine relentlessly in my future career.

BUISNESS OR ENGINEERING….

ARH..!!!!!

today better than yesterday

Stop trampling me. The burden of As’ is trampling me. I’m render helpless…..

Can I shout above deafening buzz alone? Yes, I can. Yet, I failed. It is only a smattering of depression. I am trying to widen my mind. “I’m not an aged student.” mumbling myself. Peeping my father, he is 45, look better than me. Smile is always portrayed on his face. I should lean from him. As the saying goes, like father like son.

Today, my teacher thought me a word, native. I have known it very well. However, I didn’t use it in a proper way. It is adamant to use for describing races as well. I heard my class teacher said, are you pure chinise? Do you think how my tuition teacher answered? How pure do you want? 70%? Like alloy? LMAO………………………….

What can I do? Should I laugh? I used to be the same if he didn’t teach me. I definitely would have used“pure” Chinese to ask somebody. I think, others’ would LMAO on me.

Anyway, I appreciate this. We need to learn from mistake to make it better, best.

I bet you would not resist to LOL。 　　　　

END-ing

I hate my stories come with a monotony ending. I would like to have some exciting as well as unpredictable, neither unbearable nor boring. In a blitzkrieg of loving game, I have not excruciated by any girls. Nevertheless, depressing would starts sinking on me, until wee hours, recruiting my perfect soul again, a better girl would have waiting for me. I would have to continue studying hard albeit I was dumped by a girl, first time. (Usually I dumped them, this is the 1st time).

How would it be an ideal ending in a relationship? It seems to be a bit early for me to think about it. In the fast-paced world, everything could have happen but it have denied by time. So, I have to cheer up, stop burdening myself with innocent questions.

Exams are imminent. I wonder how fast a second can passes through my life. I am wondering how the time could stop going on, waiting for me to have enough slumber time.

Hoping my next ending will be a spectacular stunt, not a bored.

losing control...

A few days I didn’t open my website updating my recent activities. It seems I would have to off my site before it die. Absurd, making decision is my shortcoming. And I have no idea this few days what am I busying for. I’m not diligent on my studies and blogging as well. Asking what happen to me, no one can answer me but a word “decline”. Maybe world cup has mixed up my time table, I have to stop this damp situation. ARH~~~~





My mom asked me about my future career. i’m not going to tell her I will fail my history and moral subject. What can I answer her question when I have no idea about myself.





Fellows asked how my relationship with God is. Oh no….i was totally caught by this question. I don’t have enough confidence to tell him what I’m thinking.




What I gotta do now??? Missing in this small planet……..

praise HIM

After finishing my malacca camp, I have to give myself a break, to continue my long-long journey.

Reviewing back my previous post, I have not written any evangelism post. It is no doubt, I’m just a pseudo-Christian. I was sad and deeply regretting what I have missed. Sarcastically, my Facebook religion view is written that I am a Christian. What I have done, it is not enough to praise my god. Anyway, I have bought a new international version bible. Start to read English version, and then write in here. “Love the Lord your God with all your mind and with all your strength” <>

my new bible.....sheer white....

I have learnt a lot after this camp. There are many Christians came from all over peninsular and Singapore. I was fascinated by some of the girls, maybe I have seen umpteen KL beauty, now is the time to seek some other beauties from different state. Excluded the girls, the most handsome pastor, a Singaporean, he has sought my soul into his brilliant sharing. I couldn’t found any way to dream but God. He has shared all his experiences with us as well as jokes that relate to our life and gospel. He has taught me what a behavior must a Christian have. I thank him with his good work.

the view from my bed in Melacca

SUSHI KING....again......

Before ending this short post, I can’t wonder what time I can type another post, I have no time. It is so cruel.

not that suck..

It is time to update my side before my visitors starving for my words.

I desire to shout out load. I want to say I love you. I want to say I indeed love hanging out with you guys. No other words can best to fit my feeling that day beside LOVE.

On 22 may 2010...i have my best outing with my classmates. You may feel dizzy what so happy just to play with friend? Anyway, love is denied without any definition. Friendship is sailing in the sea with spirit. Whilst, everyone in the ship has a job to maintain the stability. A person is needed in the helm who help to propel this ship. I’m looking who will be the leader after we all separate from school. Photo will be here as soon as possible.

A memo style update for tonight. Struggling with my exams is another crucial job for me.

Keeping my finger crossed praying all of you will stay in good health.

showing off to you....

Learning to show off is indeed prideful. Just like monster says, show it off what you learning here before someone visit you front the grave. Nevertheless, he thought us, show off at blogspot and facebook. Giving some meaningful comment with umpteen words that stun those readers brain is our main intention. It is a visible intruder of knowledge.

Practising English skills when typing comment and articles are the alternate way for me to reveal what monster thought me. No doubt, he is really an assuming guy, love to show off just because of his undisputed confidence on writing English. It has given me a lesson, a lesson that tells me which lever I am. Comparing him to me, I’m still a kid; perhaps I would devastate him with treble. But it was too bad I gave him a wrong URL, he couldn’t find here until next week.

when will malaysia win a thomas cup again????

Back to Thomas cup, Malaysia was defeated overwhelmingly by undisputed china. It isn’t anything new to Malaysians. To umpteen Malaysian, this maybe sorrow news to us, everyone had paid their support to Malaysia team, but they lost. And we were witnessed the cup gone to china again in Putra Jalil Stadium. Anyway, we have done our job as inspiring to nation team.

LIN DAN, china, he is a guy who fulfilled with massive confidence. A guy who do not afraid any war as well as enemy. After he defeated Malaysia player, he show off his muscle to all Malaysian that victory comes from strive, triumph is gained with lot of practice. Psychology is a fact that caused Malaysia lost. Hoping nation team can overcome this obstacles by destroying undisputed the great wall of china, bring back the Thomas cup 2010. Malaysian team won’t pale in badminton world.