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Tuesday, December 14, 2010
















All sorts of questions keep rumbling in my brain, making it hard for me to retrieve. What should I do next? I have the time, without plans, it is useless, indeed. I am begging the national service to inform me about the place I’m going to. Absurd, our government is always running against snail, moreover, they always catching snail’s tail. I’m not pointing any finger to whom I meant, I just try dull out my inner scream.

It is the first time I feel I’m reading alien language in my mandarin exam. It is totally out of my range. Even worse, I couldn’t read a word in a simple sentence. In certain extent, I seldom revise my homework, it pays. Nothing I can change right now, it have been a past tense. It is time to relax…

Recently, Michael Jackson latest album has released. It is his dream, giving us his music and soul. I indeed love it. You are not alone, Michael, rest in peace.

Which will be better for future, engineering or business? Who can tell me by showing some examples. Maybe no one, it could be a tough questions to ourselves.

Starting this moment, I need to continue my life, shine relentlessly in my future career.



Monday, November 1, 2010

today better than yesterday

Stop trampling me. The burden of As’ is trampling me. I’m render helpless…..

Can I shout above deafening buzz alone? Yes, I can. Yet, I failed. It is only a smattering of depression. I am trying to widen my mind. “I’m not an aged student.” mumbling myself. Peeping my father, he is 45, look better than me. Smile is always portrayed on his face. I should lean from him. As the saying goes, like father like son.

Today, my teacher thought me a word, native. I have known it very well. However, I didn’t use it in a proper way. It is adamant to use for describing races as well. I heard my class teacher said, are you pure chinise? Do you think how my tuition teacher answered? How pure do you want? 70%? Like alloy? LMAO………………………….

What can I do? Should I laugh? I used to be the same if he didn’t teach me. I definitely would have used“pure” Chinese to ask somebody. I think, others’ would LMAO on me.

Anyway, I appreciate this. We need to learn from mistake to make it better, best.

I bet you would not resist to LOL     

Saturday, October 30, 2010


Showery days continue wreaking havoc in several countries. It seems our mother nature is revenging to us. I read an article recently as it said our earth is mad. Polar bear has been started eating their “children”. Some huge bears even eat the corpse from the coffin. It sounds crazy. I have overwhelmed food which causes me so fat. Absurd, the bear has nothing to eat? Do I finish its food? Or do I hunt them to eat? Sorry, I do not. But I switch on air-cond to kill them unintentionly.

I think more effort should be taken. We cannot point finger at anyone because we are murderer too. After 7 years more, I would like to make a scheme to protect them, trying my best to resort measures on the global worming. In a certain extent, our country would be a massive oven if the temperature continues increasing drastically. Furthermore, the weatherman will predict higher reading of temperature which is awful. Oh my god. We will back to heaven soon~~”

Animals are between the devil and the deep blue sea. We are the one who says loud but do least. We will be paid. If we do not want the bears to kill us, then we should switch off our air-cond. Remember, do as you would be done by. Do be an empty vessels making the most noice. This is what we are now. I’m the one also… T_T

Thursday, October 28, 2010

The Days

I am flying,

Soaring through the air,

Looking up the clouds, I hold my breath,

Can I do this?

Everything comes in twinkling of an eye. It is too fast. I awake from a dream, swirling in the melodies with the singing birds. As usual, I keep my finger crossed, hoping it will be a good day.

With the drowsy scent of slumber still enveloping me, I fumble my way into the bathroom.

As I busy brushing my teeth, the thought of SPM is imminent. Counting down the days left, my heart starts huffing and puffing. If my dreams could bring me towards an ideal world which is stress less, I would be the sleeping princess forever.

The morning is fine. There is a slight breeze in the scented air. It certainly seems like the tough day is over. I continue studying solely.

These are the mornings before SPM.

I have a very long time did not log on here. Just in the usual way, I ended my words with wish. I do not think a man can handle all things perfectly. No one is super. So, I do speak loudly, in the highest amplitude, saying “I can”.

No matter how tough it is, nothing is impossible.

As the saying goes “if the first time you do not succeed, try again”. The only loser is those who give up before trying. CHEER!!!!


Sunday, August 8, 2010

a hard way to say goodbye

The cloudless sky made the star unseen. By typing words here, my heart was huffing and puffing. I tried to establish a new life. Yet, I failed. I was clueless about myself, trying my very best not to remember you. Tears started bursting out, pelting against my gaunt face. I couldn’t see any brightness as well as I was sinking into despair.

Sobbing miserably was the only way I can relieve my sadness and disappointment. I was in the blue. I tried to dull my inner scream. Yet, I failed. This was another cold night, another fortnight I failed to forget you. I was wondering why the night was cold while you were not by my side. You had warmed and melted me entirely. You had become the meaning of my life.

That day, the sun shined relentlessly, instilling a sense of ecstasy that made me feel ten story’s high. Showing my cheery countenance, it was a date, which I had longed every second since I knew you. Although I stay up over night, I couldn’t hide the excitement of dating with you. I continued peeping my watch. Man should be punctual. As I was waiting beside the bus stop we met the 1st time, I was flabbergasted.

I saw him put his big, hairy arm around you, and you sank into his chest. You had hurt me with an invisible knife. My heart was breaking when you boarded a bus with him. This immense cold and nameless fear engulfed me as I was stunned at the bus stop. Upheaval began! My 1st love story ended. In fact, I was dumped without a reason. Even I stood there throughout the sunny afternoon; no one could answer me why you are leaving me.

Absurd, the sky could feel me, I was upset. It drizzled. I was drenched from head to toes. There was an Azrael besides me; my mind was flooded with suicide note. Writing a suicide note was the last thing I wanted to do for her. While walking along, I saw a borderless path, it was endless. Before long, darkness sealed my sight. I could hardly feel a sharp pain on my back.

After having a medical care in general hospital, I would hardly type my words with mercilessly. Outside was a chaos, deceivers’ playground, stealing my heart and breaking it cruelly. I was trying to disguise my hate as love.

simply trying my words......and really feel the story

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Easy come easy go makes nothing precious

We do not cherish the things that come easily. We will abundant it with no mercy. Drat, what a bad behavior we have, simply wasting the things we have. Malaysians don’t know what the life Africans is having now. All of them are starving for food, yelling for help as well as succumbing beside the door of heaven. Absurd, we have too much food, overwhelmingly. And we are feeding half of the food to the flies. Sometimes, you will see a large fly drop into food. This is not because they are tired, they are telling us “why abalone, meat, fish again..”. They start feeling bored what we are eating.

It is a slurs for us, simply insulting us. When I saw a kid refusing to eat, I was deeply clueless what was happening. Why some kids are starving, why some kids are in the state of obesity? Our country doesn’t seem poor. We have aware we are lucky in this world. We have all sort of food here. Some blogger are introducing massive choices of sumptuous cuisine. But keep in heart, eat with appreciation. Do not globs deliberately, eat in the volume our body needs, not over feeding ourselves.

We have our food easily, so we waste it. This is the young’s trend. Parents have made a good living for us, remember says thank you. I am wondering why god separate human into different lifestyle, different fortune and everything different.

Affluent helps the less fortunate. Start thinking this way. What you have today is just an asset; it doesn’t follow you every day. Everything will lose when you die, nothing on you (B.O.B). Then help those who are in need. ^^

Tuesday, July 27, 2010


I hate my stories come with a monotony ending. I would like to have some exciting as well as unpredictable, neither unbearable nor boring. In a blitzkrieg of loving game, I have not excruciated by any girls. Nevertheless, depressing would starts sinking on me, until wee hours, recruiting my perfect soul again, a better girl would have waiting for me. I would have to continue studying hard albeit I was dumped by a girl, first time. (Usually I dumped them, this is the 1st time).

How would it be an ideal ending in a relationship? It seems to be a bit early for me to think about it. In the fast-paced world, everything could have happen but it have denied by time. So, I have to cheer up, stop burdening myself with innocent questions.

Exams are imminent. I wonder how fast a second can passes through my life. I am wondering how the time could stop going on, waiting for me to have enough slumber time.

Hoping my next ending will be a spectacular stunt, not a bored.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

losing control...

A few days I didn’t open my website updating my recent activities. It seems I would have to off my site before it die. Absurd, making decision is my shortcoming. And I have no idea this few days what am I busying for. I’m not diligent on my studies and blogging as well. Asking what happen to me, no one can answer me but a word “decline”. Maybe world cup has mixed up my time table, I have to stop this damp situation. ARH~~~~

My mom asked me about my future career. i’m not going to tell her I will fail my history and moral subject. What can I answer her question when I have no idea about myself.

Fellows asked how my relationship with God is. Oh no….i was totally caught by this question. I don’t have enough confidence to tell him what I’m thinking.

What I gotta do now??? Missing in this small planet……..

Sunday, June 13, 2010


Some people are working like a dog; some people are playing with dogs. Sarcastically, people would choose playing with dogs but not human being. Well, it sounds like I’m a dog-hater, boycotting dogs. But I have seen several scenes that tell me dog is more precious than human. Deeper, dogs own an owner; dog gives orders to their owner

.what do you think if we feed them compare to feed milk to dogs???

or rather buy shirt for them???

Still, people devote themselves to serve a dog, refuse to give some attention to whom indeed render helpless. Does it make sense to you?

I have read some articles about how to be a dog’s owner. It tells me many wealthy people have extra-unnecessary money and time to feed their puppies. They treat their dogs like a human being, but opposite attitude to dog’s shop worker who unintentionally make her puppy bark. Absurd, where was the ordinary behavior

communicating to people gone?

i prefer HOTDOG...better than become a junkyard dog.....

Comparing human to dogs, people may be crying now. In fact, some people say we live in a dog-eat-dog world. That means many people are competing for some things, like good jobs. They say that to be successful, a person has to work like a dog. This means we have to work very, very hard. And the situation would be worse if they become sick as a dog.

Some people are compared to dogs in bad ways. People who are unkind or uncaring can be described as meaner than a junkyard dog. Junkyard dogs live in place where people throw away things they don’t want. Mean dogs are often used to guard this property. They bark or attack people who try to enter the property. However, sometimes a person appears to be mean and threatening but is really not so bad. We say his bark is worse than his bite.

Then what do we prefer? Be a dog? Be an owner? Or continue to over-feed our pets? Let it gain pet’s obesity?

To someone who works diligently, god will know, pray to him, let someone help to overcome obstacles…