god is a part of my life

I wanna go camp…..why cannot….

Rehearse asking the same question in front of my mom. But she never thinks twice to answer me, straight away reject me. Gosh, do I look like a small kid, can’t take care myself when outing??

What’s the problem she don’t let me to go camp? This is my last year in school and this camp will held in Melacca. It’s damn exciting….why don’t let me go…

Can’t write more here, time is lesser and lesser for me to prepare for the coming war. The SPM result is coming out on this Thursday, hope those who is taking result have a pretty nice day. And I must continue the journey to dazzle my future. Wish you and me are the same human.

We are finding happiness every moment we breathe. Stop thinking those annoying stuff. Take a deep breath. And it will be better. Always continue our journey, because our god has planned our journey, obey him, it won’t lead u to a dark place.

He is the one who knows what we need now.

He is the one who created us so unique.

He is the one who lead us to heaven.

He is the only one who gives so many meaning as well as challenge to our life.

He is powerful.

a heavy minded

A darker skin I have, a heavier responsibility I have.

Many people work under a hot sun. Do they really wanna this kind of lifestyle? It’s difficult to stay so long under sun especially Malaysia.

I have tried this in this few days. I have joined the school team to play. Training everyday is normal. But when u start standing on the field, the responsibility to win will become heavier and the intention is to defeat the enemy and gain victory. But I finally fail to gain. I had presented them the victory. Maybe is a difficult war or I was not giving my best to help my team win.

Under the hot sun, I sacrificed my skin, it have become charcoal. Such a bad decision I have chosen, but I’ll never regret the trek I choose. Although the games lost, consulting myself it will be better tomorrow.

Why darker skin has a heavier responsibility? It’s not about the dark skin human, is about the people who work under hot sun.

Haha, I have been a dark skin player, I played for my team, score for my team. But alas it lost. When u stand on the field longer, your skin will become darker and the time u play will longer. Then, your responsibility to win is heavier.

I’m not a good guy. I’m a human who like to be deserved by victory. A man who looks victory is a big deal.

In these games I played, I feel a lot. I have find out the important factor is not to win but is to enjoy the process of playing. Sounds difficult, because is my mind telling me always win, do not ever lose, and this cause me fail to gain victory.

When someone hope hardly, the sadness will comes nearer.

When someone greatly desire, the disappointment will comes nearer.

When someone enjoy the process, the coziness will never leave.

damn day....

Damn!!!!!!

What happen to my stomach~~

Damn!!

I have been stomach ache for this few days….

Now still happening on me…..

Arh~~

Can’t stand long and some more tomorrow have competition…..

Need to pray hard tonight ….. to wish a better tomorrow.~~~

This is not the only thing I busy, my oral test is coming also…..

This time, I have not much confidence to achieve my goal.

This time, I’m afraid of this teacher.

This time, I wanna “kill” this teacher with my words~~

This time, I’m serious, but it can’t stand long, gosh!

This is my last oral test and maybe it’ll affect my future career. I take this with 3 girls and I’m the only boy. The script was written by me. But alas, my dialog is just a few, as well as it’s just answering my friend question. I’m really sad about this. If the teacher don’t satisfy for this, I gonna killed soon. Hope everything will proceed in a smooth and safest way.

In here, I may thank for the comment you guys give me comments. It really give me such a energy to continue to face challenge…^^

school team

Training to be the best is difficult.

Is time to update here, leaf-ING room. Although I was exhausted, but long time didn’t post, I’ll feel not comfortable.

This year, the 1^st challenge I take is to join school basketball team. The trek to be a player is so hard. I’m the guy who always thinks nothing can take me down. But this time is different; I maybe fail to show off myself. I found that I can’t be superb in basketball. Training all the day under Malaysia sun, is very unlucky. The sun is too warm in Malaysia. Until my skin got too much of vitamin D, become damn dark and my eyes almost blind. When the coach scolded me, I can’t face to him. It shows I’m so rubbish, that until can’t face him.

All of this is just a beginning, the show never end until I can’t challenge more. But at all, be a school team player, I’ll do all my best to feed back my last government school, the last secondary school year….

a worst date

Watching latest girlfriend going out with a shorter guy, I seem to be a little bit jealous to them. Unbelievable, the boy is shorter than my latest GF. The words come from the boy was fulfill with all the brickbats, thorns as well as much of F**K words. Damn it, I was thinking that, am I really that bad to go out with?


Before this funny scene began, I was expecting to go out with two girls, with lots of fun. But alas, I couldn’t hide my angriness. What I expected before this outing was a simple eating fair. But why at last, I was going with a girl that made me feel bored all the time and made me feel so lonely in the big mall.

Taking the monorail to Time square, my wallet was full of money to bring them to have a nice food out there. The 1st station was a concept shop in Sungei Wang, it was T-bowl. It is a close stool restaurant. It is decorated like we’re eating in toilet. But I’m starting to feel vomit when I read the menu. The name was so bad tasting. When my dish came, I can’t imagine how weird is that feel. Just like clinging beside the toilet bowl, eating those shit that made by me. Unsavory taste assaulted my tasting gestation, my tasting bulb and it brought me to shit place, vomit in the hell.

After this amazing shit comes from t-bowl, I had felt tremendously boring to them. What they chatting was like ear by month, all secret. What the hell was that? I started feel regret to come here. On the way back to TS, the sleepiness came to me. I started to showing out my bored to them.

Before all these jealous thing started, I though we’re just 3 in a group. My latest GF stared to looking around for a boy, it’s her newest toy. I really couldn’t saw the guy when they met. After all the damn boring stuff having from me and the lonely girl, I finally saw the short guy.

I’m such a nerd for her. From their back, I and the girl can saw the guy was merely
shorter than my latest GF.


All these comes from my sight, I was too bad to stray them out to compare with me. Maybe I was terribly infected the sickness of jealous. Asking myself, why my latest GF still accepting my invitation that day. It was the 1st date for them, why she asking me out to see them flirting to each other in front of me.


Before the end of the dizzy hell trip, I feel deeply sorry to them for my brickbats. It almost spoiled my image, pissed.

broken hearted

the 50th post

The 50^th post from me.

I was incredulous to believe I have written so many things in this leaf-ING room.

The purpose I built here is to bluffing all around and describe things happen on me.

Others blog maybe celebrate anniversary for year, but I celebrate my post age. Reviewing to those old posts, it was such a sweet memories to me.

Applauding myself here for my diligence to continue posting my words to this leaf-ING room.

Nothing more to write, but a earnestly appreciation from me to you. Thank you those who had come to read my blog or leave comment. Thank you very much.

haha....like idiot talking to itself....but it never fail to catch your attention.